“Lord, I know that you seek me, when I’m trying to hide. And your love, it pursues me, all the days of my life.”
Much is said, it seems, in praise songs about God pursuing us. But these lyrics spoke to me today about hiding. And I made a connection between hiding and light.
Light mesmerizes me, with its playful patterns on my floor, on my walls, on the grass outside…anywhere, really. I take photos of the morning or evening light and hashtag them. I once took a photo to show the delicate morning light in my kitchen, and the brightness exposed a dirty corner that was hiding in the darkness. I couldn’t see all that grime and goodness-knows-what that needed cleaning until the morning sun shone on it. After I cleaned that tiny corner, it looked a lot better.
Lately, I’ve pondered some verses about light in the Bible, which seem to apply to things I’ve been through in the past few months, and which also seem to pop up here and there. In fact, they peeked over the covers of my Write the Word (Faith) journal recently, and waved.
As a flawed human, I tend to want to hide things that I don’t want to be seen. And that’s when Jesus, as the light of the world, pursues me. For you see, when I am running from the truth, I am running from Him. And what I think will kill me if I face it, will actually set me free if I let Him have it.
It’s such a beautiful truth, literally and figuratively. And one that changed me forever.
Humans run. We hunch over our precious, stinking bundles, and protect them as we flee, furtively looking backwards to see if someone is following, or if someone sees. Even we are afraid to look, so we keep it covered. But an all knowing God sees all, and often, others see through the situation, too. So, who are we fooling? Probably only ourselves.
Sometimes, at rock bottom, it all seems so unfair. But I think the very depths might be part of the pursuit. And if I look up, I see the light. And if I hand over that bundle, Jesus unwraps it and gives it a proper burial. And then, I can stand, walk into the sunshine and take His hand, back on the narrow path again.
I love CityAlight. This is not my favorite song off of their Only a Holy God album, but since it spoke to me today, I’ll post it here. And some epic songs about light follow below by David Crowder, who is currently heavy on my playlist.
I’m not a country or bluegrass fan, but this Crowder song, with its talk of light, made me smile. (Hey! Hey!)
And probably my favorite:
(If I could feel you shine your perpetual light, then maybe I could crawl out of this tonight.)